A broken heart is a heart that has felt love.

Woah, have been going out this few days.
Pool with Alicia, Haikal, Jeanin and Cindy. Others were around, Mich's co and Gerlad's co.
Lunch Buffet at Sakae Sushi with Aunt.
I admit, i ate alot :X
But this made it more worthwhile right? ^^ hees.
Watched Case 39 with Girlf, Shawn and Jiarui.
Watched Planet 51 with R.y . Nice movie.
Swimming with Chewming and siblings.

I guess that was last movie outing with him.
Things had changed. Amazingly, i have not adapt to it, to the friends situation.
I guess i have been hallucinating too much. I thought i could i change it easiy, but who knows i am still a coward ._.
It makes me even more upset when going through it with my clear mind, knowing what's going to happen next.
Feelings changed.
I can no longer hold your hands openly.
I can no longer hold on to your arms like i always did.
I can no longer hold on to your hands whenever we were crossing the roads.
I can no longer hug you like i always did.
I can no longer say iloveyou as your girlf.
I can no longer go out with you as your girlf.
I can no longer treasure you as your girlf.
I can no longer be in your embrace, trying to give me warmth whenever i am cold.
I can no longer lean or rely on you.
I can no longer feel the love from you.
I can no longer get the warm from you.
I can no longer ...
There's too much things i want to say. I guess some things are better to left unsaid.
I miss everything that regards to you.
Be it a tiny little thing could reminds me everything.
I thank god for giving me five hours just to be with you.
Though i miss being your girlf but i guess it's time for me to put a full stop to this story. Yes, it is hurtful. I am suffering but i know things won't be the same.
In that five hour, i tried my best to let go but i failed. The moment you lent me your hands trying to give me some warmth. My heart melts . Especially the part when you place your hand on mine. You started teasing me when you felt that my hands were icy cold. You joked that i was eating ice popsicle. I couldn't resist but to lay my head on your shoulders. Even though the feeling wasn't the same but at that moment, i felt that i have done happiest thing that i have ever do. Though you didn't hug me back or grab my hand tightly but i am contented. That's more then enough. I won't be greedy. I will bury all those memories deep down my heart. I managed to open my heart and hugged you when you were leaving. All i could say was Goodbye. Deep down my heart, it was bleeding but i kept a strong front.
It's time for me to move on and stop living in the past.
I thank god for giving me this opportuniny knowing you and being your girlf.
I thank god for giving me so much memories.
Goodbye and once again
Iloveyou.

I am sorry for this emotional post. It's something which means alot to me.