Perhaps i'm really an...

Sigh. I'm having a terrible moodswing after i heard something hurtful. This is not my first time hearing such things from my non. Sighed. It's confusing. How can he said such things to hurt me? I really don't get it. In the first place, why do you have to raise me up when you are treating me like this? It's torturing. I don't see you treating my sister or my brother this way. Just because i'm the eldest, so i have go through such suffering? I've been always wanting to rebell, but i had no idea why i don't have the courage to.. I'm trying so hard to earn their trust but again and again i'm falling. I really hate this. Why can't i have a wonderful and loving family? i'm really envious of people who live in such family. They are really lucky... Dear god, i really wish they can know how i'm feeling. It's really painful hearing this kind of words from my own dad. Sighed. I guess it's enough of all this rants . Shall be optimistic towards my life :D though i don't have great family ties but i have a great boyfriend and wonderful friends around me. Haha, that's more than enough already i guess (: Alright, i shall continue my daily affairs tomorrow :D

Bye humans :D