This isn't love, it is just some form of rely.

Hello peopleeeeeeeeeeee ^^
Have been neglecting this blog of mine :S
Been really busy, ya life of a O'level student.
how boring can it get -.-
Alright, whatever it is, so be it.

Let's review about last week...
Hmm i can't really remember...
But i know last friday went to cut my hair and shopping with von.
&&& I remember Kelvin kept calling us to entertain him because he had nothing to do ._. Oh ya, i fell sick on friday evening followed by fever then cough.
Till today, i am still having flu ~_~
Remedial class have started so does cca.
Yesterday went for jogging at anchorvale park. Never been to that park before. Jeanin and me ran together. After that Haikal joined us. He ran from his home to anchorvale when he stay around Hougang area. I'm glad that i passed the first trial ^^ Today, i went for some safety training. I thought it was for IPP, but the it wasn't.
It taught us first aid, cpr and fire fighter. It's cool to use the fire extinguish but too bad i don't have the courage to do that. Laughs :S
AND AND AND There's this trainer who reminds me of Danny ! Can you believe it !? Laughs. But he is a malay, probably he is mixed-blood because he is kinda fair. Hees.
Overall, the training is enjoyable. I met D at the course but we aren't in the same group. HAHA .
Sigh, i am bored :(
& something piss me off -.-
Btw i don't need your sympathy or should i say companionn ?
You make me realise that you are just another hi-bye friend.
Who don't treasure friends. You are sucha self-centred person who only cares about yourself. Hello, you mean you have feelings but others don't ? ._.
You treat people like invisble which really pissed me off.
Forget it, hard times like this are going to be over real SOON .

Now i know why, i need a boyf ._.

Why can't people who are in love be together?

Great, i've completed my summary but not amath. Luckily amath is due on friday. I look fatigued :/ have been turning in late ever since school starts. Everyday there's are tons of homework for up to complete x_x sec five life is really stressful. Today i realised that higher nitec course is only two years and then you can go to poly alr ! Sigh. Forget about it :( Today pe lesson isn't as tiring as last week but still my muscle is aching ~_~ I've to start practicing for my napha at anchorvale park !!! Probably i'll faint of overtiredness and of the scorching sun :s
Alright, i'm done :D
Goodnight earthlings ^^

Will love wait for me ? ( LOL ^^ )

Today is 19Jan and it's HAIKAL LESTA LOVE BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D
I promised that i will post about him on his birthday and promise are not meant to be broken right? Laughs.
This is how it goes...

Name: Haikal Lesta
Sex : Male
Age : OFFICIALLY seventeen ^^
Currently : Single
Studying at : Phss
Any girls want him, i can introduce :D
Laughs, okay i bet he will kill me if he sees this but who cares ^^
Shall be a surprise for him, HAHAHAHA.
Ahem, *clearing throat* AHEM...
Hmmm, i met you when i was in secondary one, class 1N1.
Subsequently we have been in the same class for 4years even for secondary five.
We started to be good friends after prom night ( i dk why was it after prom night but it just happened to be after prom night, LOL ) Laughs. Suddenly i am speechless :X
Okay, chills. What i want to say is yes,
thankyou for being there when i needed someone to be there,
thankyou for being my punching bag,
thankyou for being my listening ears,
thankyou for cheering my up whenever i am down,
thankyou for diverting my attention towards friendship and not love,
thankyou for putting positive notes in my phone without me knowing,
thankyou for making my smile,
thankyou for your "funny" jokes,
thankyou for asking me to be optimistic &
thankyou for being a wonderful friend.
There is too much for me to thank, i guess you know :D
I know you have seen this before but just see it again. Laughs.
Hmm, actually you like to put up a strong front in front of everybody but deep inside you are hurt. *Remember one afternoon we were on the same bus, i told you, you were just wearing a mask to deceive people that you are fine? You were shocked when you heard this because i knew nothing about yout personal life and neither you told me about your problems but i can guess it :D HEES. You are always trying to avoid the problem, just not to be hurt. Always trying your very best to forget everything but you did not manage to do it.
I guess time is the best medicine to heal your broken heart.
My friend, if i can move on, i believe you can also move on (;
Cheers & happy birthday :D

It's great to have you as a friend (:
*Don't regret asking me to post this ! Evil girn*

We aren't compatible (:

Laughs, funny title. But who cares? I like it :D This weekend is a fruitful one. Saturday - Bugis trip to lookout for present then aftermath went to Pasir ris for Haikal and Adam's bbq. But before going to the park. Chewming and i were releasing stress at the arcade. Playing Jukebox and The arshi arshi [ i can't remember the spelling ] It's fun, though money is running fast. Haha. Sunday - is a family day ^^ Went to Courts and Ikea. Finally i've brought my mirror :D The best thing is, it only cost $9.90. Laughs. Really cheap ^^
Sigh, right now i don't know what to do for D&T. I hate doing research, especially when this year theme is tough :( Forget it, shall not start moaning in the middle of the night ._.

I guess i should just forget about it :/ We aren't compatible. Shouldn't drag till feelings are deeper, by the time it would be too late to regret. So yupp, forget forget and FORGET !
Laughs. I don't know why recently i am getting more cranky. Perhaps it is because of stress. HAHAHAHA ;)
Goodnight readers :D

Have i fall for you ?

I hope not :/
Because i am afraid to be in love.
Because you love her.
But the feeling is kinda sour, i dk why .
Laughs, okay okay i am just trying to be funny ! ^^

I'm bored/tired/happy/sad/excited/depressed ~~~
I feel like sleeping yet i want to watch my dramas :S
School was great, spending time with friends are awesome :D
Study together, eat together, go home together, go to the toliet together.
Practically friends are always doing things together. Laughs.
Oh ya ! Have i mention about my sitting arrangement ?
2010, a new year and a new sitting place. LOL.
I am sitting right in front of the class, can't fall asleep.
SO everything i am tired , i will force myself to be awake.
& there's something going on with the group near me.
Everything we won't laugh out loud when something about the flu monster happan ! Laughs.
&&& Today math lesson was LOL !
The notice bored fell off and it nearly hit our teacher. But her reaction was hillirous. Five guys went out to the front to bring the board to another place but she thought they were going to ask her if she's fine. LMAO ! Okay, sorry i am mean :X
SOMETHING MADE ME REALLY PISSED OFF.
It's about our job salary.
In total i made 31 sales but they only gave me the amount for 5 sales ._.
That's really ridiculous ! I lost $100++ ! How can i just let my hard earned money fly awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !?

Alright, i am done with my blog.
& i just remember raine asked me a very weird question.
Well, if we have fate, things will work out by itself (:

EDITED POST
Just finished watching Hi, my sweetheart. It was an touching and sad episode and i cried. Finally i have managed to cry out, those agonizing moments were over. I felt much more relieved after the cry. After watching that episode, i wondered what's true love? Is it sacrificing for your love ones or is it by protecting them. Somehow love is blind. It blind everybody who is in love. No matter what, you can't see the bad points about that person because you are alr blinded by love. It also make me realise that love is able to torture people and the pain is excruciating. It felt like all the air around you are gone, you can't breathe and you contemplate you could die rather then suffering from this agony.
Well, love hurts.
I guess i have lost faith in love. Love is no longer the wonderful thing in the world. It only bring sorrows and a maimed heart.

Feeling dismay :(

Well well, i got back my O level math result. I'm not satisfied with the result i got. Just one more grade and i don't have to retake! The thought of doing math for another year is hundrum. We witnessed the ceremony, i realised that it is possible for a na student to get less than ten points. I assume that person is really consistent in he/her work and he/she really puts in alot of effort. It isn't an easy task to score very well for O level :( Sigh. Alright, enough of these despondent stuffs. Shall move on :) Oh ya, today we received our D&T theme. Kinda hard. Our teacher mentioned in na that no one score distinction for d&t. Oh dear x_x i have to sudden urge to go to Higher Nitec :(

It's sweet to hear that from you.

Hello peeps !
First week of school is tiring yet it's fun ^^
Teachers are starting to throw us piles of homework and tests.
Almost every night i turned in at one plus when the next day i have to wake up at 6.25am X_X
First week of school :D
- A visit to Nyp (:
- Were lost at School of engineering
- Met a kind soul
- Helped us to get back our class
- Laughing out loud with bunch of girls :D
- Today went to tp but i did not go in -.- Dots.
Can't really remember what i did, LOL.

Anyway things were settled. Doubts were cleared. What i want to say, it's said .
It sweet when you asked your ex about the past and he replied you with sweet words and cute/funny/happy emotions. I can't help with the smiling but i feel fortunate that i met him and history repeated for two times. Who knows, there might be a third time and probably it will better then the second time? Laughs. It's really heartwarming (:
Sometime it's good to reminisce about the past ^^
HAHA, okay no more love :D

Np and Sp later ! :D

P.s You are a jerk.

Wow, i saw everything...
It cleared my doubt. All i can say is you are a liar. A very fat one -.-
Well, to be frank i nearly broke down. But after doing some soul-seaching, i read it again and i almost puke -.-
I can't believe it's the truth.
At the moment, i feel so horrible because you LIED.
You LIED ! I thought you hate liars? But now you are one of them.
If you have tell me everything EARLIER and be honest, things would be better but i guess it's too late. I was kept in the dark, gosh ! I felt like a FOOL for weeks ?
Put me in your shoes, how would you feel if you have to go through such things?
What have i do to deserve such treatments !?!
It's unfair, purely UNFAIR !
Thank god, i seen your true colours. Afterall you aren't great -.-
You are just a big fat liar .
I guess i have to erase those silly thoughts away.
& I once said that, if i were to find out that everything is true you are so gonna be blacklisted under my friendlist.

Goodbye my friend -.-

Insomnia :(

Oh my god. I can't believe at this time i'm still awake! I can't sleep, i dk why! Probably i'm not use to sleep early x_x Sigh, i'm afraid i can't wake up tomorrow. Have been tossing around and i still can't sleep :( Sigh. Forget it. Shall try to sleep x_x
School blues ._.

A new year.

Happy new year humans :D
2009 is over. Feel kinda dejected about it :/ Probably i'm still holding on to the past and not prepared to let go. Sigh, a new year , a new start. Why am i posting such a depressing post? Laughs. Perhaps i hate the arrival of 2010 and that is why i am feeling downhearted. Alright, enough of this boring stuffs.

Yesterday, went to have steamboat with co and countdown at Marina. Got a great spot for viewing the fireworks, credit goes to Yanrui for getting a good spot :D Thank god that the fireworks were not display near the Singapore flyer, if not we could not get a good view :s Steamboat session was great, everyone was laughing out loud as well as enjoying the food ^^ Laughs, hope there will be time for us to have another session :) 2010 gonna be a busy year, busy preparing the major O's . After waiting for four years, it's finally here . I make sure this time round i won't feel regret about my results so i will buck up :D Yay! I promise tomorrow i will post what i'm suppose to post so stay tune ^^

Recently, i have been having delusion of you.